104

that was the temperature here today.

i'm melting, really.

anyone who knows me knows i HATE the heat. hate it. H-A-T-E. i know that the valley is hotter than most other places in california, but really? 104? supposedly next week it's supposed to cool off into the 80s. we'll see.

the drive home from work is horrendous. 6 lane highway jam packed, stop and go in 104 degrees w/ no air conditioning. i'm a sweaty pig when i get home. can't take two showers a day as californians are supposed to conserve water. we are in a drought. ugh.

couple that with the tension in this house and that's the recipe for boiling tempers.

i guess that's better than boiling bunnies. (fatal attraction?)

*sigh*

picture time

here are some pics of the trip out here:




sienna in the back seat. we are on our way!




the rocky mountains from the west side




devil's something in utah. i can't remember.
i do know it belonged to the devil; however, because it was hot hot hot!!




sienna on the bed trying to recover from being in 110 degree heat.
poor sienna! :(




leaving st. george, utah.

happy monday, right?

geez is it really august already? yikes. where has this year gone?

crazy to think that i had been unemployed since the middle of february until two weeks ago. and the holidays are right around the corner.

glad the weekend is over. i get bored out of my mind sitting in my room at the house watching movies. at least this week i will have the computer and cable. that, at least, gives me more options of things to do until i get on my feet financially.

it's been very hot here. i'm not used to the humidity. i am trying to stay cool as best as i can. i know it affects sienna, too.

i took a bunch of pics of the house and my room this weekend and as soon as i get the internet (wednesday) i will be able to put them up. kind of gives an idea of where i live.

the fallout from the drama on thursday/friday continues. haven't spoken to john since last week. he worked all weekend (driving) and was home last night but i was already asleep. i know he leaves again tomorrow morning. i dread going home after work and if it wasn't for feeding sienna, i would stay somewhere late so i could avoid the harshness and being ignored. unfortunately, that is not an option. such is the end of hopes and dreams. good that i learned it soon, rather than later.

adam continues to call and beg me for money on his books. i'm just not doing it anymore. i am so tired of this endless circle. i got a strange phone call from someone last night who said that adam had a message for me that he went to the infirmary and needed me to put $80 on this books. yea, right. not going to happen. he has his parole hearing this week and i would imagine in a week or two (or when a bed is available) he'll be going to a halfway house. how did i not give my son the tools to grow up and be responsible? did i not set an example? i guess he chose his father's example instead.

it's me

i am back (sort of).

we still do not have internet at home (i will be getting that next week).

whew. quite an adjustment moving to california. the drive was pretty uneventful EXCEPT for the un-godly temperatures throughout utah and nevada. i would guess there were times it was in the upper 110s while we were driving. sienna had a really hard time of it. i kept water in the back seat for her and tried to keep her as cool as i could. when we got to St. George, UT the hotel desk clerk told me it was 110. i really thought i was in hell. ugh. i was surprised at my little car. it made it through some pretty big hills to get us there.

i got to my destination about 5:30ish on the 1st of July. hard to go back and remember all the little nuances of things but it was good to see john and meet his son. ackward, yes. but we unpacked my car and i tried to get settled into my room.

the first few days he drove me around a little so i could get my bearings. my biggest challenge is directions i.e., which way is west? in colorado my whole life .. you looked for the mountains and that was west. everything else was easy to figure out. here, there are mountains (not like the Rockies) all around, so which way is west? north? i try to gauge by where the sun is. i guess i'm like a pioneer. rises in the east and sets in the west.

i've been to the beach twice. once just to see it off the PCH (pacific coast highway) and the other time was on July 4 (which was a disaster / mistake). i was there for all of about 15 minutes to let sienna swim and run through the surf. she had fun but we left. we did not go prepared. we didn't have anything there (blankets, picnic, etc). we didn't even get there until about 3:30 in the afternoon (not my choice). i will get there again sometime.

this is to be continued ... but i am working (temp job but it's good and i like it). i only have 30 min for lunch so i will finish this week!

miss you all!