new beginnings

~*~ Adam and Jen ~*~

February 14, 2012

my son is getting married.

i am incredibly happy for him.   despite his life choices up to this point, one thing had remained steadfast.  since he was about 14 or 15, he has always said he wanted to get married and have a family.  a big family.  husband, wife and kids.  

i have wished this for him.  put it out to the universe.  and it is finally happening.  

The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother. ~ Theodore Hesburgh

What counts in making a happy marriage is not so much how compatible you are, but how you deal with incompatibility. - Leo Tolstoy

The most important marriage skill is listening to your partner in a way that they can't possibly doubt that you love them. - Diane Sollee

Marriage is the hardest thing you will ever do. The secret is removing divorce as an option. - Will Smith

 

time flies ...

*poof* *poof* blowing off the dust.

it's been a LONG time.  that's okay though.  time to get started again as this is a brand new year for me.  i've put lots of changes into motion - all good.

i will use this blog to chronicle my journey into health and well-being in 2012.  lose weight.  control blood sugar.  control blood pressure.  get mentally and physically healthy.  it is time, people, it is time.

will be posting pics and updating regularly.  and writing again.  soul searching.  contemplating.   enjoy the ride!

is it really 2011?

so here we are. 

2010 just disappeared, didn't it?  i still can't get over how fast the year went.  i, for one, am glad it's past and we are looking forward.

i have a lot happening the first part of this year.  i was scheduled to begin 6 weeks of classes for bariatric surgery on Jan 18.  i don't think i can do it now, however.  i just can't afford it.  my rent went up $100 per month and i have a stupid car payment for a 1996 Saturn that's worth $700 but which I am paying $9,000 for.  i am also being hounded by collection people for the medical bills from my hysterectomy which i couldn't pay in 2009 because i was unemployed. 

the good news is i finally quit smoking and this is my LAST quit.  i don't want to smoke anymore and i am proud of that.  and in quitting, i've also lost weight ... so i've dropped 20 lbs in about 4 months.  i wasn't even really trying ... just changed eating habits.  SO, i think that if i continue on the path that i'm currently walking, and add exercise, i can lose this weight myself.  it will take longer, but i know it's a healthier way to do it. 

i am still loving my job.  i mean i love it.  i look forward to going to work every day.  my boss is awesome (most days) and i am so happy to be doing something to be helping kids.  it's not a lot of money and i struggle, but it's worth it.  sometimes i think of looking for another job that pays more, but i would be giving up contentment and satisfaction. 

my son is doing okay.  still can't find a job but he's been with his girlfriend for almost a year now.  he's very attached to her 3 boys.   he also gets to see my grandson on a consistent basis and they are developing a wonderful relationship.  he's made positive changes about his life.  he just needs to work on the job thing.  right now he's taking on the role of Mr. Mom.  it's okay.  it works for them right now.

i will be more consistent in posting as i need an outlet. 

*tap tap* anyone here?

it has been quite a long time since i've posted.  that is because i didn't have internet access at home until recently.

my job is going good.  i'm happy there and it is a great organization.  i love what i'm doing and i am thankful to even HAVE a job.  with the economy the way it is and so many people still out of work, it's scary.  while i wouldn't necessarily say i have job security; i think i'm doing okay and they are happy with what i'm doing.

nothing different in my personal life.

am waiting to hear from Kaiser about the LapBand surgery.  i was accepted / approved earlier this year; i've been on a waiting list.  i have lost about 20 lbs on my own which is good, but it's overwhelming to think of how much more i have to go.   i have quit smoking (because i had to for the surgery) but i don't think i have gained any because of it.  mostly because my funds have been limited.

i've been needing this forum to vent, so i will be writing here much more often.

happy labor day weekend. 

it takes time, sometimes

i got a job.

thank God, i got a job.

i start tomorrow.

hugh sigh of relief.  can you hear it? 

*sigh*

still waiting

still job hunting and still waiting to find one. 

this is getting frustrating beyond belief.

was supposed to get money in today from unemployment, but apparently because yesterday was a HOLIDAY it did not post.  so i'm thinking tomorrow?  better be tomorrow because i have no gas in my car to get to the interview that i scheduled about 30 mins ago. 

*sigh*

and then my son comes home on feb 2 and i feel responsible for that.  why?  i don't know.  but i do.  after facing homelessness this fall, i know the fear he feels.  i have to at least help him get started and if he throws away THAT opportunity, then i'm done. 

i seem to say that a lot.

it's been a while

since i don't have ready access to the internet, and more importantly, not much to say, i'm sorry it's been a while.   i still have to come to the business office to get on the net.  mostly when i'm here i'm looking for jobs.

trying to recover from the passing of Sienna, to trying to figure out what i was going to do since i don't have a job.  trying to make sure i'm not going to lose my place to live. 

will try to post more often.  not that you care, right?