something i failed to mention in my earlier post was that his parole officer said that IF he quit missing his monday night classes and IF he started going to NA / AA meetings on his own and IF he gets a job right away, that she will make the recommendation for him to continue on ISP (intensive supervised parole) rather than going back to the half way house.
he has to grow up and make his own decisions. he HAS to do this on his own. i can't help him any longer. i can listen and be supportive emotionally, but there is nothing i can do for him. he has to choose to go to classes. he has to choose to go to NA meetings. he has to choose to get (and keep) a job. all of this is on him.
the things that i will be giving him are things i don't care if i lose IF he ends up going back to a half-way house. his girlfriend is willing to take the items but if she doesn't, then it's fine. i'm ok with that.
i did not need this stress this week. he is meeting with his parole officer as we speak (he had to be there at 8:00am) so i guess i will find out in a few hours what's up.
9:07am
Showing posts with label violation. Show all posts
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Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
really?
as it is with my life, if things are going too good, something will happen to blast that to smithereens.
my son's parole officer showed up tonight. that, in and of itself, is not a bad thing. it is what they are supposed to do. and frankly, i've been surprised that she hasn't been here before tonight. she also came rather late (9:30 pm) which surprised me.
apparently, he had a hot UA. this was news to me as he didn't tell me. needless to say, i was livid. i thought the stress of everything was over. now i'm wondering what i should do. should i put ALL of my stuff into storage? she's taking him before the parole board, which will happen in about a month. if he goes back to a half-way house, then what happens to all of my things? this begs the decision that i will not give him anything to take to his apartment that i won't mind losing.
i just can't, for the life of me, figure out why he can't do the right thing. he's a bright kid. he's a con artist. he's a consummate liar. he's a manipulator. he just chooses to do the wrong thing all the time for the instant gratification.
there is a part of me that is glad to be going away so i don't have to deal with this anymore. my heart, mind, body and soul can't take it. i literally thought i was going to have a heart attack tonight. i love him, but i can't do this anymore.
11:33pm mst
my son's parole officer showed up tonight. that, in and of itself, is not a bad thing. it is what they are supposed to do. and frankly, i've been surprised that she hasn't been here before tonight. she also came rather late (9:30 pm) which surprised me.
apparently, he had a hot UA. this was news to me as he didn't tell me. needless to say, i was livid. i thought the stress of everything was over. now i'm wondering what i should do. should i put ALL of my stuff into storage? she's taking him before the parole board, which will happen in about a month. if he goes back to a half-way house, then what happens to all of my things? this begs the decision that i will not give him anything to take to his apartment that i won't mind losing.
i just can't, for the life of me, figure out why he can't do the right thing. he's a bright kid. he's a con artist. he's a consummate liar. he's a manipulator. he just chooses to do the wrong thing all the time for the instant gratification.
there is a part of me that is glad to be going away so i don't have to deal with this anymore. my heart, mind, body and soul can't take it. i literally thought i was going to have a heart attack tonight. i love him, but i can't do this anymore.
11:33pm mst
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