after the events of the last week, i have made the decision to move to Seattle. anyone who really knows me would know that i've said for many, many years that i want to live in Seattle, or the surrounding area.
i believe now that this little side adventure in california was supposed to be the catapult for me to make that move.
i spent the morning job hunting (sent 15 resumes) and apartment hunting. rents are not unlike california but i found a few apartment buildings that are very nice and have decent rents ($800 - $900). my goal will be to job search every day until i find something. i'd like to be out of here in the next few months.
seattle will fulfill all my desires; i.e., the ocean, cool rainy weather, awesome coffee, seattle grunge music. i can't think of a better place to live out my last years.
seattle ... here i come.
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Showing posts with label ocean. Show all posts
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
settling in
still trying to get into the swing of things here in california. it's kind of strange at time. there are moments that i find myself thinking that i need to run over to PetSmart or something and i realize that i'm not in kansas anymore (denver). i'm a very long way from home and even if i wanted to get there ~ i'm not sure how i could.
life in this house is chaotic at best. there are good days but most days are drama filled. i know part of it is my adjustment from living alone the last 25 years and having to adjust to "roommates" but man, these guys are something else. it's bi-polar-ish. one day things are ok and the next people are acting crazy. the disrespect of one another astounds me. especially the 18 year old. he's as entitled as my son is. he doesn't break the law (that i know of) but he is as bad ~ or worse. the other one barely talks to me and when he does, it's a criticism of some kind. and the man of the house. *sigh*
work is going ok. i've been busy working on a few different projects. i have no idea what the status of the job is. if it's long term or not. i wish i had a better idea of what is going to happen. i really want to move and i have decided that when i do move, it's going to be to Long Beach. it's so beautiful there and right on the ocean. yea i realize that when *the big one* happens i'll end up in the sea but maybe that's my destiny.
sienna had a bad day today. when i got home from work she went out to potty and ate something off the dirt. i realize immediately that she picked up something right on top of a california fire ant hill. she immediately started coughing and rubbing at her nose. i think that she ate some of them and also probably got bit by a few on her nose / muzzle. i have been watching her closely because for a bit she seemed to be having some kind of reaction but she seems ok now.
this whole thing still just astounds me. i can't believe i'm not at *my* home with *my* things in *my own* space. i don't know that i will ever again find a place where i truly feel like i belong. i know it's not in this house. i know my roommates would be more than happy to be rid of me.
i also got bit by a spider in the night on my bicep. it is swollen and bruised.
someone get me outta here.
life in this house is chaotic at best. there are good days but most days are drama filled. i know part of it is my adjustment from living alone the last 25 years and having to adjust to "roommates" but man, these guys are something else. it's bi-polar-ish. one day things are ok and the next people are acting crazy. the disrespect of one another astounds me. especially the 18 year old. he's as entitled as my son is. he doesn't break the law (that i know of) but he is as bad ~ or worse. the other one barely talks to me and when he does, it's a criticism of some kind. and the man of the house. *sigh*
work is going ok. i've been busy working on a few different projects. i have no idea what the status of the job is. if it's long term or not. i wish i had a better idea of what is going to happen. i really want to move and i have decided that when i do move, it's going to be to Long Beach. it's so beautiful there and right on the ocean. yea i realize that when *the big one* happens i'll end up in the sea but maybe that's my destiny.
sienna had a bad day today. when i got home from work she went out to potty and ate something off the dirt. i realize immediately that she picked up something right on top of a california fire ant hill. she immediately started coughing and rubbing at her nose. i think that she ate some of them and also probably got bit by a few on her nose / muzzle. i have been watching her closely because for a bit she seemed to be having some kind of reaction but she seems ok now.
this whole thing still just astounds me. i can't believe i'm not at *my* home with *my* things in *my own* space. i don't know that i will ever again find a place where i truly feel like i belong. i know it's not in this house. i know my roommates would be more than happy to be rid of me.
i also got bit by a spider in the night on my bicep. it is swollen and bruised.
someone get me outta here.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
tears
i cried last night when i knew my beloved Myca was gone. there was no other option but still i feel i failed.
i'm feeling like i'm failing at everything these days.
my living situation has turned toxic. john is no longer speaking to me after the huge argument we had yesterday morning. when i got home from work he and his son were gone. i went to bed about 8pm. they hadn't returned. i would assume they stayed out specifically to avoid me. this morning i got up for work and he was sitting in the living room, but didn't say a word to me. he leaves this morning to be on the road until wednesday morning. then he's home again until friday morning. i am going to be looking for apartments although that's probably not a smart idea until i have a permanent job, but i have to do something.
i can't live like this.
when i get to the point that i think "death" is the better option, i know i have to make changes.
on the other hand, i am mapping directions to the beach. i am going to the beach this weekend. i need the relaxation and meditation. yay! beach!!
i'm feeling like i'm failing at everything these days.
my living situation has turned toxic. john is no longer speaking to me after the huge argument we had yesterday morning. when i got home from work he and his son were gone. i went to bed about 8pm. they hadn't returned. i would assume they stayed out specifically to avoid me. this morning i got up for work and he was sitting in the living room, but didn't say a word to me. he leaves this morning to be on the road until wednesday morning. then he's home again until friday morning. i am going to be looking for apartments although that's probably not a smart idea until i have a permanent job, but i have to do something.
i can't live like this.
when i get to the point that i think "death" is the better option, i know i have to make changes.
on the other hand, i am mapping directions to the beach. i am going to the beach this weekend. i need the relaxation and meditation. yay! beach!!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
it's me
i am back (sort of).
we still do not have internet at home (i will be getting that next week).
whew. quite an adjustment moving to california. the drive was pretty uneventful EXCEPT for the un-godly temperatures throughout utah and nevada. i would guess there were times it was in the upper 110s while we were driving. sienna had a really hard time of it. i kept water in the back seat for her and tried to keep her as cool as i could. when we got to St. George, UT the hotel desk clerk told me it was 110. i really thought i was in hell. ugh. i was surprised at my little car. it made it through some pretty big hills to get us there.
i got to my destination about 5:30ish on the 1st of July. hard to go back and remember all the little nuances of things but it was good to see john and meet his son. ackward, yes. but we unpacked my car and i tried to get settled into my room.
the first few days he drove me around a little so i could get my bearings. my biggest challenge is directions i.e., which way is west? in colorado my whole life .. you looked for the mountains and that was west. everything else was easy to figure out. here, there are mountains (not like the Rockies) all around, so which way is west? north? i try to gauge by where the sun is. i guess i'm like a pioneer. rises in the east and sets in the west.
i've been to the beach twice. once just to see it off the PCH (pacific coast highway) and the other time was on July 4 (which was a disaster / mistake). i was there for all of about 15 minutes to let sienna swim and run through the surf. she had fun but we left. we did not go prepared. we didn't have anything there (blankets, picnic, etc). we didn't even get there until about 3:30 in the afternoon (not my choice). i will get there again sometime.
this is to be continued ... but i am working (temp job but it's good and i like it). i only have 30 min for lunch so i will finish this week!
miss you all!
we still do not have internet at home (i will be getting that next week).
whew. quite an adjustment moving to california. the drive was pretty uneventful EXCEPT for the un-godly temperatures throughout utah and nevada. i would guess there were times it was in the upper 110s while we were driving. sienna had a really hard time of it. i kept water in the back seat for her and tried to keep her as cool as i could. when we got to St. George, UT the hotel desk clerk told me it was 110. i really thought i was in hell. ugh. i was surprised at my little car. it made it through some pretty big hills to get us there.
i got to my destination about 5:30ish on the 1st of July. hard to go back and remember all the little nuances of things but it was good to see john and meet his son. ackward, yes. but we unpacked my car and i tried to get settled into my room.
the first few days he drove me around a little so i could get my bearings. my biggest challenge is directions i.e., which way is west? in colorado my whole life .. you looked for the mountains and that was west. everything else was easy to figure out. here, there are mountains (not like the Rockies) all around, so which way is west? north? i try to gauge by where the sun is. i guess i'm like a pioneer. rises in the east and sets in the west.
i've been to the beach twice. once just to see it off the PCH (pacific coast highway) and the other time was on July 4 (which was a disaster / mistake). i was there for all of about 15 minutes to let sienna swim and run through the surf. she had fun but we left. we did not go prepared. we didn't have anything there (blankets, picnic, etc). we didn't even get there until about 3:30 in the afternoon (not my choice). i will get there again sometime.
this is to be continued ... but i am working (temp job but it's good and i like it). i only have 30 min for lunch so i will finish this week!
miss you all!
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