jobs

i am in the process of looking for a job. i still have my temp job but i'm coming up on my three months and i just don't know what is to come. i need something more stable that has decent benefits. i know unemployment out here is high ~ but i am just plugging away hoping that the right thing falls in line for me.

another "house meeting" today ::rolls eyes:: i swear these guys are worse than women. since i don't ovulate anymore i think they've all taken over the trait.

i continue to keep my feelings and emotions in check where john is concerned. there have been several instances that i want to react to something but i work on not doing that. it's tough but necessary.

i found out that i can not qualify for the lap band surgery financially. i didn't get approved for the financing they offer and i don't have the money to do it. my insurance doesn't even cover lab work so that's not an option. i'm frustrated because i feel like i don't have any time. they would accept a co-signer but i don't have anyone to do that either. i am at a standstill with that issue and feel very depressed.

the weather has finally gotten cooler and it's actually beautiful out these days. in the 70s. i read the news tonight and see it's supposed to snow in colorado tomorrow. i am homesick. i wish i could go home. except i don't have a home there.

i don't have a home here either, now that i think about it.