daylight savings

just a cruel way to give depressed people an extra hour to have to deal with.

i'm going to call a therapist tomorrow.  i'm in a very dark place right now, a place i haven't been in many years. 

i feel trapped, like a caged animal that is cowering in the corner having shit thrown at it.

i'm on the edge of a complete break and the only thing that keeps me from doing something about it is the fact that i don't really know how to do it and make 100% sure it works. 

nothing is worse than trying to off yourself and then waking up to realize you failed. 

yea, i've been there before.  and don't want to go through that again.