pain

Tuesday, September 8

Dramatic changes are coming in your love life as a result of changing values, changes in friendships, or changes in your beliefs about "right and wrong". You may be growing toward a better understanding, or are growing apart from someone who has chosen to stay frozen in the past.

that couldn't be more on target. i just read it.

when i got home tonight, there was another car in the driveway. i pulled in behind it.

when i came in, i saw a woman sitting very close to john on the couch. he introduced her to me as "rachel." from what i remember, this person and he were friends when he and i were together in the past. several times when he would call me on the phone she would come over. they are also "exs".

she is also obviously very close to john's son. as i write this they are all sitting in the living room, laughing, playing, joking and having a great time. they ordered pizza. they did *kind of* invite me. as in "um, did you want any of this?"

no. no thanks.

i'll take my heart break with my diet pepsi in my room.