NO!!!!

ugh!!!

why are people doing this???  they want to change "real time" with "made up time" and make it permanent???

PLEASE do not let this pass legislation!!

WHY?

why don't we stop doing day light savings time and keep STANDARD TIME??

i'm sick of it being light out at 7:30pm at night when you're body's natural time clock is wanting to start calming down and preparing for rest / sleep.

people should be getting UP earlier and being more productive in the morning then needing it to be light out at 9:00 fucking PM in July.

i swear to god people are insane.

 

happy friday

our weather has been a little schizophrenic the last few days. 

it started out pretty warm.  44° F this morning when i left for work. that was incredible because for 7 days our high wasn't even half of that.  but now it's cloudy and overcast.  i personally love this.  the weather station is calling it "haze."

meh.

anyway, i'm about to leave work and go get a prescription.  then groceries.  then home. 

no particular plans this weekend except to continue my Game of Thrones binge.  the final season (8) starts April 14.  i want to be able to slide right into the first episode with no time in between the last episode of season 7. 

the world of entertainment and politics is as frustrating as ever.  i get incensed when reading stuff about Resident Chump.  i think that he can't get any more ignorant and then, he does.  i can't believe what comes out of his mouth.   i try to ignore it as best as i can.  it just makes me crazy.

ever heard of NF?  an AMAZING artist.  yes, i know he sounds like Em.  that's just his voice / sound.  but he's not like him at all.  Eminem made his career with his very outrageous songs (which he's grown out of), but also rapped about real life. NF is not like that at all.  all his music is about his life - real life.  his best song, and probably THE most emotional song i've ever heard is:  How Could You Leave Us?  if you can get through this song and not cry .... you don't have a heart.

YAY!!!

this is GREAT news.

ALL horse racing, greyhound racing, rodeos, etc etc etc should be banned. 

it's animal ABUSE. 

animals were NOT put on this earth for our entertainment. 

i get the whole Secretariat thing and stories, but these animals are pushed, and pushed and pushed. 

"they love to run!"  really, did you ask them?  did they respond?

so happy about this. 

about time

the entire country should do this.

i'm glad my state finally is getting on board.

the death penalty is barbaric. 

and really is hypocritical about that "thou shalt not kill" thing.

:(

i found out monday night that my beloved brother-in-law passed away in February.  yes, February.

no, my family didn't tell me and this is something i'm not sure i can forgive.  they really talk about being Christians, etc., but the way they have treated me is anything BUT being Christ-like.

anyway ...

growing up he was like my father.  my father died when i was 10.  he and my sister were like my surrogate parents because my mother was so abusive.  i would spend a lot of time at their house; i baby sat my nieces and just hung out.

he would be working in his shop and i would just hang out.  he was a firefighter his entire working career and there would be times we'd go visit him at his station.

he taught me how to drive.

he worked on my car(s) and would want me to help.

we were always very close.  i loved him and my sister so much.

things changed and my sister shut me out of her life for years.  it wasn't until my oldest sister passed away that we reconciled, so i thought.  he had just been diagnosed with stomach cancer.  a year or so later she was diagnosed with liver cancer.  i wanted to spend as much time with them as i could, but she didn't really want to, i guess.

one of the times he was in the hospital, i went to visit him and we talked for about three hours.  in that conversation, he said to me, "I don't know if you ever knew this but I always thought of you as one of my daughters."  with tears in my eyes, i said, "Well, I don't know if you ever knew this but I always thought of you as my surrogate father."  i know he missed me being part of their lives, but as the old saying goes, happy wife, happy life.  

my two other sisters were also estranged from her.  she had made it very clear that she wanted nothing to do with them - ever again.  my mother was great at teaching us to be mean to each other, but she was adamant.

other things happened that really hurt my feelings and we fell apart again.

i figured this out Monday night and was shocked to find both of my sisters and their families knew about this right after it happened.  my entire family knew that he had passed.

except me.

why?  WHY???

although i didn't get to say goodbye to him, i will always have that conversation we shared.

and i'm left to wonder, again, what is so awfully wrong with me that my sister(s) and their kids hate me so fucking much.

i'm devastated and distraught.

rip Chris.  💙💙💙

love letter #22

yay!!

good boy Sabbath!  💜💜💜

love letter #21

this.

she should be a motivational speaker.  she knows her stuff.

good job Dad.