*sigh*

this life sucks.  seriously.  and i know it is a result of my choices (mostly).  there are some things that happen that are the choices of others.  i just am over it all.  i must have been a real piece of work in a past life that i have been beaten down to nothing in this one. 

poor Rudolph

this is one of the funniest things i've read in a LONG time.

Bad Santa

i love twitter because people are so damn clever in 140 words.  i am not that quick witted.  i mean i can eventually get there, but not off the cuff most of the time.  but these peoples' tweets are HILARIOUS.  things i never considered after watching this yearly for 50+ years.

you should open up some of the tweets because in their comments you'll find even better tweets.  😂😂  one of the best is discovering Don Cornelius (SOuuuuulllllll Trraaaiiinnnn) is Yukon Cornelius' cousin.  😂😂

Social Media

i broke up with Facebook after the Cambridge Analytica thing happened (not sure i spelled that right).  also left Twitter.  however, that has left me with no way to vent, comment, etc. on current events.  

then i remembered i had this blog. so yea, here i am.  

remember, opinions are my own.  i am entitled to them. 

today on my lunch i was just reading this article:

SouthWest Airlines Mocked My Daughter's Name

um, ok.  you didn't think that MAY happen at sometime in life when you named your daughter Abcde?  really?  not that an airline agent should mock anyone for any reason, but really?

*sigh*

and yes.  still here.  still surviving.  lots has happened and i will get back at it soon.  💚

all you need ...

i saw a quote today which really struck me ~

  If you are depressed you are living in the past.
If you are anxious you are living in the future.
If you are at peace you are living in the present.

 ~Lao Tzu

how true is this?  i can look back and equate the on going depression in my life to living in the past; wishing i had done things different, making different choices, being more aware of who i hurt and how my actions affected others, being more open and honest about how things affected me. not being so selfish at certain times, but more giving.  it's humbling to really take stock of things and own what's yours.  

i am trying very hard to find a calm place - a center, if you will - to be present now and not worrying about the future and not looking at the past.  i can't change anything that has happened - i can only make sure that i make good choices going forward.   i need to see things through the heart.   

i think peace is what we all want.  we want the ebb and flow of life to be calm and steady.  no one likes the stress, the pain, the anxiousness, the ups and downs.  we all want and need to be loved.  to have those loved ones around us and supporting us and in turn, supporting them when they need it.  it's a give and take - sharing of hearts.  

my focus is on getting my health back.  by continuing to value myself and take care of myself - instead of abusing myself with food.  first step is losing weight.  toning.  becoming healthy and active.  staying off the meds for diabetes because i am eating the right things.  

second, mending relationships where i can and becoming emotionally healthy.  spending time meditating, reflection, being still, listening and practicing being centered.   clearing the mind of unnecessary things and filling it with positive energy.  this can only bring about joy and happiness in myself and to others.  

it has taken me a very very long time to get to this place.  i've spent half my life in the negative.  it's time now to reach for the positive.  

it's time.

mr & mrs

ahhh.  so it's a done deal.  my son is a married man.  i have a daughter-in-law.  i have three step-grandchildren.  i can honestly say i never thought i would see this happen.  but i am happy for my son, happy for Jen .. and glad to expand the family.  

red rocks was beautiful - gorgeous day with the sun shining, but snow on the mountains.  love KBPI, Uncle Nasty and Matt Need for having this event.  i know next year that Adam and Jen will go back to re-new their vows and i hope they make it a yearly thing - to reconnect and remember the day. 

it is a busy week for me.  getting ready for the site review in addition to being the prep person for the Professional Development Day on the 20th.  another weigh-in on Friday and i haven't had the chance to really work out this week.  i'm a little stressed about the weigh-in - but as long as i don't gain any, i'm okay with that.  i have not cheated - even yesterday with all the gourmet cupcakes, cake, food, etc around.  i was prepared - had my protein shake, an apple and almonds!   two more weigh ins after this Friday, the last being March 2.  hope to see some good results and be on my way to my first goal in June!