football is over .. now what?

so football is finished for another season.  sad the Broncos didn't go farther but it was such a great time this year.  excitement that hasn't been around for a long time.  we'll just have to wait until August ... right?

snow

and snow it did!  started snowing thursday night and snowed until about noon today.  official totals for northglenn were from 18 - 20" and i believe it. 

you can see the progression from the first to the last pic.  that's a lot of snow!

i love it.  that is what i like about colorado.  winter.  i even went walking on Friday during the snow.  now that i have started the working out and eating right and experiencing the inches and weight loss, it's important for me not to let anything get in the way of getting that exercise.

my blood sugars are still in the normal range w/out insulin - and that is huge.  as i continue to lose weight, hopefully i will get off the oral meds .  11 lbs in 25 days is an accomplishment!  hopefully the weigh in this friday will produce some dramatic results for me.  tomorrow is measurement day.  i really don't expect to see another big jump with that, but i have been working hard so who knows?  i just may be surprised.

things have taken a turn for me and i know it's because of my general well-being.  working on my health also meant working on my mental health.  after the events of the fall and losing my oldest sister - the only one speaking to me at the time - and reliving the pain all over again that my family doesn't speak to me and wants nothing to do with me, i had sunk very low.  the lowest i had been in a number of years.  the week of christmas, i had to find reasons to live.  but i hung on. 

i'm really glad i did.

it's time to pick myself up, dust myself off and move forward.   time to realize that i need to love myself - for the kind, caring, compassionate person i know am and cherishing the people who think the same of me.  time to quit abusing my body (health) and to start taking care of it.

it's a new year.  a new me.  new choices.  having just turned 50 ... hopefully i have at least 40 more to go.  i want to make them great ones.  watch my grandchildren grow up.  be active.

and most of all, be at peace.

snow day!

learned a few hours ago that DPS is closed .. so that means my work is closed!  biggest storm of the season has begun - we are supposed to get up to 20"?  we will see if that happens ....

new beginnings

~*~ Adam and Jen ~*~

February 14, 2012

my son is getting married.

i am incredibly happy for him.   despite his life choices up to this point, one thing had remained steadfast.  since he was about 14 or 15, he has always said he wanted to get married and have a family.  a big family.  husband, wife and kids.  

i have wished this for him.  put it out to the universe.  and it is finally happening.  

The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother. ~ Theodore Hesburgh

What counts in making a happy marriage is not so much how compatible you are, but how you deal with incompatibility. - Leo Tolstoy

The most important marriage skill is listening to your partner in a way that they can't possibly doubt that you love them. - Diane Sollee

Marriage is the hardest thing you will ever do. The secret is removing divorce as an option. - Will Smith

 

time flies ...

*poof* *poof* blowing off the dust.

it's been a LONG time.  that's okay though.  time to get started again as this is a brand new year for me.  i've put lots of changes into motion - all good.

i will use this blog to chronicle my journey into health and well-being in 2012.  lose weight.  control blood sugar.  control blood pressure.  get mentally and physically healthy.  it is time, people, it is time.

will be posting pics and updating regularly.  and writing again.  soul searching.  contemplating.   enjoy the ride!

is it really 2011?

so here we are. 

2010 just disappeared, didn't it?  i still can't get over how fast the year went.  i, for one, am glad it's past and we are looking forward.

i have a lot happening the first part of this year.  i was scheduled to begin 6 weeks of classes for bariatric surgery on Jan 18.  i don't think i can do it now, however.  i just can't afford it.  my rent went up $100 per month and i have a stupid car payment for a 1996 Saturn that's worth $700 but which I am paying $9,000 for.  i am also being hounded by collection people for the medical bills from my hysterectomy which i couldn't pay in 2009 because i was unemployed. 

the good news is i finally quit smoking and this is my LAST quit.  i don't want to smoke anymore and i am proud of that.  and in quitting, i've also lost weight ... so i've dropped 20 lbs in about 4 months.  i wasn't even really trying ... just changed eating habits.  SO, i think that if i continue on the path that i'm currently walking, and add exercise, i can lose this weight myself.  it will take longer, but i know it's a healthier way to do it. 

i am still loving my job.  i mean i love it.  i look forward to going to work every day.  my boss is awesome (most days) and i am so happy to be doing something to be helping kids.  it's not a lot of money and i struggle, but it's worth it.  sometimes i think of looking for another job that pays more, but i would be giving up contentment and satisfaction. 

my son is doing okay.  still can't find a job but he's been with his girlfriend for almost a year now.  he's very attached to her 3 boys.   he also gets to see my grandson on a consistent basis and they are developing a wonderful relationship.  he's made positive changes about his life.  he just needs to work on the job thing.  right now he's taking on the role of Mr. Mom.  it's okay.  it works for them right now.

i will be more consistent in posting as i need an outlet. 

*tap tap* anyone here?

it has been quite a long time since i've posted.  that is because i didn't have internet access at home until recently.

my job is going good.  i'm happy there and it is a great organization.  i love what i'm doing and i am thankful to even HAVE a job.  with the economy the way it is and so many people still out of work, it's scary.  while i wouldn't necessarily say i have job security; i think i'm doing okay and they are happy with what i'm doing.

nothing different in my personal life.

am waiting to hear from Kaiser about the LapBand surgery.  i was accepted / approved earlier this year; i've been on a waiting list.  i have lost about 20 lbs on my own which is good, but it's overwhelming to think of how much more i have to go.   i have quit smoking (because i had to for the surgery) but i don't think i have gained any because of it.  mostly because my funds have been limited.

i've been needing this forum to vent, so i will be writing here much more often.

happy labor day weekend.