happy monday, right?

geez is it really august already? yikes. where has this year gone?

crazy to think that i had been unemployed since the middle of february until two weeks ago. and the holidays are right around the corner.

glad the weekend is over. i get bored out of my mind sitting in my room at the house watching movies. at least this week i will have the computer and cable. that, at least, gives me more options of things to do until i get on my feet financially.

it's been very hot here. i'm not used to the humidity. i am trying to stay cool as best as i can. i know it affects sienna, too.

i took a bunch of pics of the house and my room this weekend and as soon as i get the internet (wednesday) i will be able to put them up. kind of gives an idea of where i live.

the fallout from the drama on thursday/friday continues. haven't spoken to john since last week. he worked all weekend (driving) and was home last night but i was already asleep. i know he leaves again tomorrow morning. i dread going home after work and if it wasn't for feeding sienna, i would stay somewhere late so i could avoid the harshness and being ignored. unfortunately, that is not an option. such is the end of hopes and dreams. good that i learned it soon, rather than later.

adam continues to call and beg me for money on his books. i'm just not doing it anymore. i am so tired of this endless circle. i got a strange phone call from someone last night who said that adam had a message for me that he went to the infirmary and needed me to put $80 on this books. yea, right. not going to happen. he has his parole hearing this week and i would imagine in a week or two (or when a bed is available) he'll be going to a halfway house. how did i not give my son the tools to grow up and be responsible? did i not set an example? i guess he chose his father's example instead.