if there is a "god"

why the fuck is THIS allowed to happen???

really???

this torture?

not one person has EVER been able to answer this question for me.  EVER.

amen

when was the last time you picked up a book and read it?

it's been a while for me.

i really need to stop being on my tablet all the time in the evenings and on the weekends.

Your Smartphone Reduces Your Brainpower

so in other news

Jussie Smollett paid off the DA or Chicago police (a la R Kelly back in the day) to drop charges against him for making up a hate crime and playing victim, and calling the police.  all in an effort to put his name in the media and have people feel sorry for him for his horrible hate crime because he's black and gay.

fucking liar.

so, because he has money, he gets off.  with NOTHING on his record.

un-fucking-believable. 

yuk yuk

yuk yuk yuk

i shot an animal!

uh huh .. uh huh  ...

i ain't got no teeth, but i shot me a damn turkey.

a rare one too.

so i killed it.

cuz when i kill things it makes me a man.

yuk yuk

funny

how i mentioned politics on a well-known gossip/blind item website and got my ass CHEWED by people .....

"i don't come to a gossip site to talk about politics..."

"don't post about politics here!!"

bla bla bla bla bla ....

but today ... people are blowing up the page about Michael Avenetti's charges today for trying to extort Nike, another famous attorney's involvement, and snarky comments by the piece of shit MAGA's about Chump's victory .... can stand?

WOW.

for the record shit racists MAGA minions:

On Sunday, two days after receiving the results of special counsel Robert Mueller’s investigation, Barr told Congress that while Mueller’s report "does not conclude that the president committed a crime, it also does not exonerate him" on whether he obstructed justice.

do you get that?  because there was not enough evidence to charge him doesn't mean he's INNOCENT.

and really?  did you expect anything less?  800 pages from Mueller and 4 pages from Barr ...who was appointed by Chump.

get it?

weekend

i watched a couple of really good shows over the weekend.

The Fall was a 3 season series filmed in Belfast, Ireland (#1 reason i started watching), which has Gillian Anderson and Jamie Dornan (#2 reason i started watching) that ended up being really good.  don't care a whole lot for Gillian Anderson; however, she was okay in this role.  Jamie Dornan plays a serial killer trying to live a normal life with a wife and kids.  she's the detective trying to find him.

good stuff.

also watched Triple Frontier with Ben Affleck, Charlie Hunnam, Prince Oberon from GoT and another guy.  Netflix original movie.  it was ok.  good premise in the beginning but really got weird and there wasn't a whole lot of character build up.  i would give it a 3.5 out of 5 stars.

also started watching the Madeline McCann story.  there is a lot in this documentary that i didn't know about this case.  however, i still feel like the parents are negligent if nothing else, for leaving their kids alone in a hotel room, with the door unlocked, while they were dining at a restaurant a little way from their room.  the parents stories and the stories of the people with them don't add up.  i think i have two episodes left.  it's sad because she is still missing.  i believe that she is not alive and i believe the parents know what happened.  i also learned that i would never go to Portugal and/or the resort where this happened.   the police there are sketchy. 

i also cleaned, worked out, did laundry, snuggled with my cat and wished it would rain.  i didn't. 



 

shock

all i can say is i am shocked.

really.

and vindication for the POS?  um, no.

oh well, happy Monday, eh?

it's a day

just a day.

Friday. 

glad for the weekend.  supposed to be rainy; however, they predicted 60% change of rain this afternoon.  it's 2:30pm, the sun is out and not a cloud in the sky.  so, meh.

have to stop at the grocery store on the way home after work.

then, working out, and relaxing. 

cleaning out my closet tomorrow.  considering my significant weight loss of late, i need to go through my closet and figure out what i can donate to good will and find older clothes that i haven't been able to wear.  and since i'm pretty simple when it comes to fashion, i'd say my stuff is timeless.  meaning even though it's a few years old, it's still acceptable. 

no seriously.

my main fear about cleaning out my closet is creepy crawlies hiding in boxes.  this summer i will invest in some storage bins. 


i will say i hate assoles on the internet / social media.  i mean seriously.  who gives you the right to put someone down?  degrade someone?  make them feel small or insignificant?  the thing it it's more of a reflection on YOUR character that you show what a classless person you are.  but it still hurts.

and the Mueller report has been delivered.   i am afraid to know the contents.  to me this feels like election night when i went to bed and was praying that fucking Chump would not win.  and then waking up to find out he did and being in complete and utter disbelief.  i'm in fear the same thing will happen and nothing will happen to the miscreant.

love note #27

wish i could be like this for the oncoming of "spring."

it's supposed to be up to 75 here next week.  UGH!!!  in MARCH!

it did put a huge smile on my face though!

the most CORRUPT human ever

i can't believe this piece of shit is our president.

he is appalling.

and he wants to talk about free speech (as long as it relates to his conservative cronies being able to speak out) but geezus, let's federally investigate SNL for making fun of him.

HYPOCRITE!!!!!

and every day his stupid idiot daughter wants to trash HRC about the personal email use, but his stupid idiot daughter is STILL doing the same thing .. every fucking day.

and her husband is talking with foreign leaders on WhatsApp??????

how in the fuck did these two get security clearances?

WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING?  is this real??????

i bet our founding forefathers are rolling over in their graves at this fucking farce of a presidency.

he truly is mentally ill.

florida man

so the thing on the internet today is google "Florida man" and then the month, day of your birthday and see what comes up.

it has been a riot, truly.  some of the funniest headlines (they may have not intended to be funny .. but sometimes ... *ahem*)

Florida man tried to board an airline with a fake grenade.

Florida man dons Spiderman mask while robbing liquor store.

Florida man thinks he's stealing pain killers, ends up with laxatives.

love note #26

omg too cute.

well, very DANGEROUS, but too cute.

love note #25

don't EVER give up.

ever.

love note #24

THIS is love.

pure and unadulterated.

you are their life.  and they love us.  💕💖

because we all know

throwing a crying baby to the ground, will make it stop crying.

this fuck should get life in prison. 

again, where was gawd when this was happening?  was it the free will of the baby to get killed?

hmmm, no.  i don't think so.

peek a boo!

this

*breathe*

i didn't care much for John McCain politically.

but he was a veteran.  a POW.  and fought for this country.  he spent a quarter of his 20 year military career as a hostage in a Vietnamese prisoner of war camp.

fucking Chump's father made up a fake "bone spur" in his heel bullshit story so Chump didn't get drafted.  he has lied and cheated his way through every fucking thing is his life.

how DARE he made fun a veteran who is no longer here to defend himself ... he is NOTHING but a narcissistic fuck ass bully who acts like a toddler. 

every day i think i can't hate this piece of shit more.

and every day, i do.

it's all about love

what a smile.

what a kid.

what a family.

and what a group of humans who have offered and continue to offer to help.

Go Fund Me

💜💜💜💜💜

this is why

there is no "god."

this.

"Prosecutors say Dericka Lindsay had suffered horrific beatings from Posey, and Lindsay’s adoptive parents, James and Grace Smith. Officials say Posey sat on Dericka for more than five minutes in October 2017, causing the girl to die from lack of oxygen."

"Posey’s attorney said the 320-pound (145-kilogram) woman was trying to help the Smiths and didn’t intend to hurt Dericka."

where was "god" when this little 9 year old child was being beaten and abused by her "adoptive" parents?  you know, the parents who CHOSE to have her.

where was "god" during all her suffering and torture?



 

fucking lunatic

he is mentally ill.

seriously.

mentally ill.

i know i have said multiple times that i'm no longer reading shit about him but my gawd, when it's screaming across news headlines, how can you not see it?

he's a sick, sick man.  he needs help.

IMPEACH FOR FUCK'S SAKE!!!

"When you think of it that way, what we witnessed on Sunday is somewhere between concerning and absolutely terrifying. The most powerful man in the county -- and maybe the world -- spent his day touting unproven conspiracy theories about stolen elections, suggesting collusion between Democrats and comedians, attacking a military hero and Republican senator, and trying to program his favorite cable network's broadcasts. And he did all of this while failing to send even a single tweet about the tragic mass shooting in New Zealand."

 

"George Conway, the husband of White House senior counselor Kellyanne Conway, tweeted an image to the diagnosis for "Narcissistic Personality Disorder" and said bluntly of Trump: "His condition is getting worse." Brian Klass, a political scientist at UCL, was slightly more expansive: "We have a seriously dangerous normalcy bias, where we move on because we desperately want to pretend it's okay. Trump's Twitter meltdown today—which shows a deranged and unhinged person—will just be forgotten by Monday afternoon. But the deranged man will still control the nukes."

 

"Trump's critics questioning his decision-making -- or mental heath -- isn't all that new. What was new, however, was that the White House felt the need to mobilize some of its most senior officials to push back on the idea that Trump was slipping mentally."

 

"No, I don't share those concerns," Kellyanne Conway told reporters Monday of her husband's worries about Trump's mental health. Conway's assertion came less than 24 hours after acting White House chief of staff Mick Mulvaney was forced to insist that "the President is not a white supremacist." Mulvaney also said, "I don't think anybody can say the President is anti-Muslim."

 

"When, in the space of 24 hours, two of the top officials in the White House are going public to claim that the President isn't a) crazy b) a white supremacist or c) anti-Muslim, you know Trump is going through a very rough patch"

 

senseless

prayers.

the hate has to stop.

😢😢😢

are you fucking kidding me?

and they STILL haven't shut it down.

what. the. fuck.

22nd horse killed on Santa Anita racetrack since DECEMBER 26, 2018.

22 horses in 78 days?????

i survived the bomb cyclone of March, 2019

it was CRAZY yesterday.

my son is stuck in Colorado Springs because I25 is closed between there and Castle Rock.

it has stopped snowing.  still cloudy, overcast out.

it was FUN!!

we didn't much in snow totals but i left work early yesterday and it took me a bit to get home.  plows were out however, they would clear snow and 2 minutes later it would be covered again because of the high winds.

wooo!!

😮😮

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buffoon

dumbest comment of the day.

"Airplanes are becoming far too complex to fly."

gawd help us. 

why why why is this miscreant our president? 

geezus.  please help me today not blow a gasket.  i want every person who supports this CHUMP to fall off the face of the earth.  including the press secretary.  stupid bitch.

"um, i don't know anything about any checks." 

*face palm* 😒

love note #23

imagine what our world would be like if each one of us acted like this man.

can you imagine it?

see it?  feel it?

showing love instead of hate, anger, etc?

one can dream.

lol

best. skit. ever.

"y'all keep your cameras out in the open??"

NO!!!!

ugh!!!

why are people doing this???  they want to change "real time" with "made up time" and make it permanent???

PLEASE do not let this pass legislation!!

WHY?

why don't we stop doing day light savings time and keep STANDARD TIME??

i'm sick of it being light out at 7:30pm at night when you're body's natural time clock is wanting to start calming down and preparing for rest / sleep.

people should be getting UP earlier and being more productive in the morning then needing it to be light out at 9:00 fucking PM in July.

i swear to god people are insane.

 

happy friday

our weather has been a little schizophrenic the last few days. 

it started out pretty warm.  44° F this morning when i left for work. that was incredible because for 7 days our high wasn't even half of that.  but now it's cloudy and overcast.  i personally love this.  the weather station is calling it "haze."

meh.

anyway, i'm about to leave work and go get a prescription.  then groceries.  then home. 

no particular plans this weekend except to continue my Game of Thrones binge.  the final season (8) starts April 14.  i want to be able to slide right into the first episode with no time in between the last episode of season 7. 

the world of entertainment and politics is as frustrating as ever.  i get incensed when reading stuff about Resident Chump.  i think that he can't get any more ignorant and then, he does.  i can't believe what comes out of his mouth.   i try to ignore it as best as i can.  it just makes me crazy.

ever heard of NF?  an AMAZING artist.  yes, i know he sounds like Em.  that's just his voice / sound.  but he's not like him at all.  Eminem made his career with his very outrageous songs (which he's grown out of), but also rapped about real life. NF is not like that at all.  all his music is about his life - real life.  his best song, and probably THE most emotional song i've ever heard is:  How Could You Leave Us?  if you can get through this song and not cry .... you don't have a heart.

YAY!!!

this is GREAT news.

ALL horse racing, greyhound racing, rodeos, etc etc etc should be banned. 

it's animal ABUSE. 

animals were NOT put on this earth for our entertainment. 

i get the whole Secretariat thing and stories, but these animals are pushed, and pushed and pushed. 

"they love to run!"  really, did you ask them?  did they respond?

so happy about this. 

about time

the entire country should do this.

i'm glad my state finally is getting on board.

the death penalty is barbaric. 

and really is hypocritical about that "thou shalt not kill" thing.

:(

i found out monday night that my beloved brother-in-law passed away in February.  yes, February.

no, my family didn't tell me and this is something i'm not sure i can forgive.  they really talk about being Christians, etc., but the way they have treated me is anything BUT being Christ-like.

anyway ...

growing up he was like my father.  my father died when i was 10.  he and my sister were like my surrogate parents because my mother was so abusive.  i would spend a lot of time at their house; i baby sat my nieces and just hung out.

he would be working in his shop and i would just hang out.  he was a firefighter his entire working career and there would be times we'd go visit him at his station.

he taught me how to drive.

he worked on my car(s) and would want me to help.

we were always very close.  i loved him and my sister so much.

things changed and my sister shut me out of her life for years.  it wasn't until my oldest sister passed away that we reconciled, so i thought.  he had just been diagnosed with stomach cancer.  a year or so later she was diagnosed with liver cancer.  i wanted to spend as much time with them as i could, but she didn't really want to, i guess.

one of the times he was in the hospital, i went to visit him and we talked for about three hours.  in that conversation, he said to me, "I don't know if you ever knew this but I always thought of you as one of my daughters."  with tears in my eyes, i said, "Well, I don't know if you ever knew this but I always thought of you as my surrogate father."  i know he missed me being part of their lives, but as the old saying goes, happy wife, happy life.  

my two other sisters were also estranged from her.  she had made it very clear that she wanted nothing to do with them - ever again.  my mother was great at teaching us to be mean to each other, but she was adamant.

other things happened that really hurt my feelings and we fell apart again.

i figured this out Monday night and was shocked to find both of my sisters and their families knew about this right after it happened.  my entire family knew that he had passed.

except me.

why?  WHY???

although i didn't get to say goodbye to him, i will always have that conversation we shared.

and i'm left to wonder, again, what is so awfully wrong with me that my sister(s) and their kids hate me so fucking much.

i'm devastated and distraught.

rip Chris.  💙💙💙

love letter #22

yay!!

good boy Sabbath!  💜💜💜

love letter #21

this.

she should be a motivational speaker.  she knows her stuff.

good job Dad.