consequences suck. that's for sure.
2 years clean on meth as of 01/24/19. i am proud of him. that was the day i turned him in to the police the last time and he went to prison. he spent 2 years, one year in the TC program. he's been out since September.
smoking weed. hot UA. violation. on restriction.
written up for having "too many friends he texts."
couple sips of beer. hot UA. violation. arrested and back in jail.
as a parent of an addict who has been addicted his entire life since he was 12, i know it's hard to change habits. i also know that the idea of "freedom" is something that is so hard to anticipate. and wait for. and when you've spent your whole life self-sabotaging, it's hard to change that too.
30 days away from being out of the halfway house. moving into his first apartment.
now, he will lose the job he loves. will have no money to move into the apartment. and when he gets out in 30 days, have no where to go.
how do you do so well .. and then smash it all?
i will never understand.
you have it in YOUR power to make choices. it's your choice. you know you weren't supposed to do these things. you knew everything that you've gained in the last 4 months was at risk. and you threw it away.
you promised me when you got out of prison that you would NEVER be in handcuffs again. EVER. but now, here you are. another arrest. another jail term.
*sigh*
i love you, son. i just don't get your thought process. i will never understand.
2 years clean on meth as of 01/24/19. i am proud of him. that was the day i turned him in to the police the last time and he went to prison. he spent 2 years, one year in the TC program. he's been out since September.
smoking weed. hot UA. violation. on restriction.
written up for having "too many friends he texts."
couple sips of beer. hot UA. violation. arrested and back in jail.
as a parent of an addict who has been addicted his entire life since he was 12, i know it's hard to change habits. i also know that the idea of "freedom" is something that is so hard to anticipate. and wait for. and when you've spent your whole life self-sabotaging, it's hard to change that too.
30 days away from being out of the halfway house. moving into his first apartment.
now, he will lose the job he loves. will have no money to move into the apartment. and when he gets out in 30 days, have no where to go.
how do you do so well .. and then smash it all?
i will never understand.
you have it in YOUR power to make choices. it's your choice. you know you weren't supposed to do these things. you knew everything that you've gained in the last 4 months was at risk. and you threw it away.
you promised me when you got out of prison that you would NEVER be in handcuffs again. EVER. but now, here you are. another arrest. another jail term.
*sigh*
i love you, son. i just don't get your thought process. i will never understand.
No comments:
Post a Comment