this has always been a bad time of year for me. always. but trying to go off depression meds at this time has been a particular challenge. why am i going off? because i can't afford them anymore. with pharmaceutical prices on the rise, what is a person supposed to do? and because i have the crappiest insurance in the world (UnitedHealthCare), they will not cover the latest med i was prescribed despite my having tried every other fucking anti-depressant there is out there. and literally, the world is going berserk when they are raising prices so much on things like insulin, that people aren't going to be able to afford that either. what kind of world do we live in? you have to be rich just to be able to take care of your health??
having anxiety and panic attacks. it's hard for me to want to get up and get ready for work. i'd rather just stay in my pajamas and snuggle with my cat. i don't have the desire to talk to anyone. don't want to answer the phone (not that anyone is calling).
i just am so over everything, you know? read a really tragic story about an adult woman who suffered from depression her whole life and she ended up jumping off a cliff in the Grand Canyon. her family could not understand. why is it so hard to understand that some people just honestly do not want to deal with life anymore? and they aren't being selfish. they are in so much pain that people can't see or make tangible. isn't it a little selfish to expect a person to live like that? just because it will make you sad if they are gone?
ugh.
don't trip about this post. i'm just talking.
having anxiety and panic attacks. it's hard for me to want to get up and get ready for work. i'd rather just stay in my pajamas and snuggle with my cat. i don't have the desire to talk to anyone. don't want to answer the phone (not that anyone is calling).
i just am so over everything, you know? read a really tragic story about an adult woman who suffered from depression her whole life and she ended up jumping off a cliff in the Grand Canyon. her family could not understand. why is it so hard to understand that some people just honestly do not want to deal with life anymore? and they aren't being selfish. they are in so much pain that people can't see or make tangible. isn't it a little selfish to expect a person to live like that? just because it will make you sad if they are gone?
ugh.
don't trip about this post. i'm just talking.
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