anticipation

so i am excited for a few things coming up. 

of course, first would be my son's wedding.  while it may not be a "traditional" event ... it is THEIR event and that is all that matters.  they are excited ... nervous ... anxious.    had a long talk with both of them tonight - calming their nerves and making some plans.  that seemed to go a long way to alleviate some of the tension they are feeling - mostly Adam!  i tell you he is a groomzilla!  

all i know is that Red Rocks is going to be beautiful and i hope my camera gets some good pictures.  his father is coming out from Washington - maybe even his step-brother and step-sister.   then a small family / close friends gathering afterwards, with a bigger picnic / reception in the spring when it can be outside in nice weather.  they think that's perfect and so do i. 

also - another weigh-in this Friday.  since i was at -6.5 last Thursday .. it would rock if i could be at say ... maybe another -4?  i would be super happy with that.  honestly though, i'd be happy not to have gained any of the 6.5 back.  LOL  although i don't know how that would be possible.  my blood sugar this morning was 111 with no oral meds or insulin yesterday.  my blood sugar before lunch was 104 and tonight before dinner it was 100.  all of this w/out meds!!  i am so happy for this.  a change of life.  tomorrow is day 30 on the program ... and i have worked my ass off.   it feels great!

some inspiration:

Only a powerful soul can offer love.
Only a powerful soul can afford to be humble.
If we are weak, then we become selfish.
If we are empty, we take;
but if we are filled, we automatically give to all.
That is our nature.
~Dadi Prakashmani

"When you begin to touch your heart or let your heart be touched, you begin to discover that it's bottomless, that it doesn't have any resolution, that this heart is huge, vast and limitless. You begin to discover how much warmth and gentleness is there, as well as how much space. Your world seems less solid, more roomy and spacious. The burden lightens."  - Pema Chodron (Start Where You Are)

"Never, and I mean never, allow anyone else’s ideas of who you can or can’t become sully your dream or pollute your imagination. This is your territory, and a KEEP OUT sign is a great thing to erect at all entrances to your imagination." - unknown

One of the most powerful tools for raising your vibration and attracting Divine support is to openly acknowledge out loud what you love on a regular basis. For example, rather than spending your lunch break talking about the boss you hate, the postal clerk who gets on your nerves, or the bad drivers on the road, focus instead on the wonderful friend from college who will be visiting, or the corner coffee shop that makes the best latte you've ever had. In other words affirm the good things in life when you speak. Do the same when you chat with your friends on the phone or email them. You don't have to be in the presence of others. Everything you say , whether heard or not, holds an enormous magnetic vibration, so speaking of what you love not only heals your heart, it actually attracts what you love. The same goes for what you hate, which is what most 5 sensory, fear based people talk most about. Simply announcing to yourselves and others who and what you love balances your vibration and draws people to you. It also opens your heart and realigns you with your true path and purpose. Do this for a few minutes every day, and it will correct your course, fill your aura with sweetness and heal your life.  Trust your vibes.  ~ Sonia Choquette