tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21575292164180951382012-02-02T21:39:02.880-08:00:| raven |:http://www.blogger.com/profile/16004708160223059066noreply@blogger.comBlogger641100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2157529216418095138.post-69118347767534910042012-02-02T21:29:00.001-08:002012-02-02T21:29:21.598-08:00

learned a few hours ago that DPS is closed .. so that means my work is closed!  biggest storm of the season has begun - we are supposed to get up to 20"?  we will see if that happens ....

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~*~ Adam and Jen ~*~ February 14, 2012 my son is getting married. i am incredibly happy for him.   despite his life choices up to this point, one thing had remained steadfast.  since he was about 14 or 15, he has always said he wanted to get married and have a family.  a big family.  husband, wife and kids.   i have wished this for him.  put it out to the universe.  and

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*poof* *poof* blowing off the dust. it's been a LONG time.  that's okay though.  time to get started again as this is a brand new year for me.  i've put lots of changes into motion - all good. i will use this blog to chronicle my journey into health and well-being in 2012.  lose weight.  control blood sugar.  control blood pressure.  get mentally and physically healthy.  it is time, people, it

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so here we are.  2010 just disappeared, didn't it?  i still can't get over how fast the year went.  i, for one, am glad it's past and we are looking forward. i have a lot happening the first part of this year.  i was scheduled to begin 6 weeks of classes for bariatric surgery on Jan 18.  i don't think i can do it now, however.  i just can't afford it.  my rent went up $100 per month and i have

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it has been quite a long time since i've posted.  that is because i didn't have internet access at home until recently. my job is going good.  i'm happy there and it is a great organization.  i love what i'm doing and i am thankful to even HAVE a job.  with the economy the way it is and so many people still out of work, it's scary.  while i wouldn't necessarily say i have job security; i think

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i got a job. thank God, i got a job. i start tomorrow. hugh sigh of relief.  can you hear it?  *sigh*

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still job hunting and still waiting to find one.  this is getting frustrating beyond belief. was supposed to get money in today from unemployment, but apparently because yesterday was a HOLIDAY it did not post.  so i'm thinking tomorrow?  better be tomorrow because i have no gas in my car to get to the interview that i scheduled about 30 mins ago.  *sigh* and then my son comes home on feb 2

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since i don't have ready access to the internet, and more importantly, not much to say, i'm sorry it's been a while.   i still have to come to the business office to get on the net.  mostly when i'm here i'm looking for jobs. trying to recover from the passing of Sienna, to trying to figure out what i was going to do since i don't have a job.  trying to make sure i'm not going to lose my place

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yea so this week i found out that my unemployment runs out in three weeks.  as of this minute i am overdrawn in my checking account. i don't have a dime to my name. i am on "e" in my car. i have minimal food. i don't get paid again until the 27th.  and that will be my last payment from unemployment. i don't have a job. i am at the bottom.  truly.  i don't think i can take anymore. 

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my vet called me friday early evening to let me know that he had gone ahead and opened Sienna up.  he wanted to let me know that i had made the right decision .. her pancreas was completely calcified and there was a large mass on it that was cancerous.  he said she wouldn't have had that much longer to live and that this type of cancer was very uncommon.  he said i prevented her from any kind

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before thanksgiving, sienna was having trouble walking.  she couldn't hold herself up or get up from laying down.  this went on, where she would have good episodes and then bad ones.  i ended up taking her to the vet yesterday because she was becoming more weak.  they weren't sure what was wrong with her.  after x-rays and blood work, they thought maybe arthritis.  but when i took her home, she

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the last few days have been bearable.  i think he's being nice, because he knows i'm leaving.  he's no longer vested, so it's easier for him. i drove sienna up to Tracy, CO (about 320 miles away) so she could ride back to Colorado with Tuesday and Paul.  this is so i can fit everything in my car and not have to ship anything.  it was a long trip.  she has been walking funny, not being able to

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Chinese Horoscope: Tuesday, November 24 It will be a day of great personal insights. Some of the best times of personal growth come during challenges. If you find yourself facing a difficult decision today, rejoice! You are being given a special opportunity to make a huge leap forward. Aquarius Your dreams can actually help to answer a lingering question today, but you'll need to take the time

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Updated:  07:41pm - Chinese Horoscope Sunday, November 22 You have an opportunity to switch your attention from a friend or companion who is using you to someone who loves and supports you, so why are you still bothering with the old turkey? Maybe you feel sorry for someone who has a mixed up sense of values and priorities.  um .. WOW? really?  i don't know if that could have been more

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what do you think of the new blog? yes?  no?  maybe?

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it is a gross understatement to say that things did not work out for me in california. i am accountable for my part.  and it was not my actions alone which brought me to this point. regardless, it's time for me to go. trying to get back to colorado, leaving Dec. 1

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a few things have happened the last week which are good things for me, but were not by choice. first, my car broke down.  that is not one of the good things.  i believe it's going to need a complete engine overhaul.  i was quoted $700 - $800 for that.  i do not have the money for this and especially right before Christmas ~ but then i was thinking, other than Jordan who do i have to worry about

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Aquarius Horoscopes(Jan 20 - Feb 18) For the Week of Nov 2nd, 2009 -- The air is thick with emotion that could make this weekend a little challenging. You may feel smothered by your current partner or encounter someone new who lacks the logic or sense of humor you like. It's wise to accept people as they are since reason is not going to change their behavior. Exercise your freedom of choice

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the hottest love has the coldest ending.

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Aquarius Feisty Mars in your 7th House of Others forms an annoying alignment with unpredictable Uranus today, indicating that your life might not be running as smoothly as you wish. But this aspect is easily handled by changing your attitude. Even if you have specific goals, someone else may have a very different agenda for you now. Instead of fighting over something that ultimately won't matter,

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just a cruel way to give depressed people an extra hour to have to deal with. i'm going to call a therapist tomorrow.  i'm in a very dark place right now, a place i haven't been in many years.  i feel trapped, like a caged animal that is cowering in the corner having shit thrown at it. i'm on the edge of a complete break and the only thing that keeps me from doing something about it is the

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i hear it's snowing in colorado.  big blizzard.  it's not that i wish i were there, i just wish i was anywhere but here. i got another lecture (talking to) because i said that if another person moved in here i would have to leave.  he just doesn't get it.  i'm criticized for having feelings that don't mesh with what he thinks i should feel.  he knows what's best for me.  he knows what's best for

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so many things make sense now that i am aware of the truth. he's home today. i can't even look at him. i want to be anywhere but here. every conversation, every moment of action and behavior by him is crystal clear to me. my stomach is in knots. my heart is aching. my head is pounding. it's been 7 years since i went through this, but it's different now. then, he didn't leave me for

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my temp assignment ended today. unemployed again.

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i am in the process of looking for a job. i still have my temp job but i'm coming up on my three months and i just don't know what is to come. i need something more stable that has decent benefits. i know unemployment out here is high ~ but i am just plugging away hoping that the right thing falls in line for me. another "house meeting" today ::rolls eyes:: i swear these guys are worse than

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AquariusYou are hopeful today that your current financial condition will improve soon. Your extra efforts at work won't likely go unnoticed now, although you could get frustrated because it will probably take some time yet to be acknowledged. Don't worry about the immediate response from your associates or your boss. Focus on quietly meeting your obligations and have faith that things will turn

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not just the lottery, but the BIG BIG Lottery:THE-BIG-BIG Lotto Team show details 2:06 PM (2 hours ago) Attn:We the members of the THE-BIG-BIG Lottery Board are pleased to inform you of the results from our just concluded lottery draws. The online cyber lotto draws was conducted from an exclusive list of 2,000,000 email addresses comprising of individuals and corporate bodies picked by an

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after the events of the last week, i have made the decision to move to Seattle. anyone who really knows me would know that i've said for many, many years that i want to live in Seattle, or the surrounding area. i believe now that this little side adventure in california was supposed to be the catapult for me to make that move. i spent the morning job hunting (sent 15 resumes) and apartment

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AquariusYou may have a hard time maintaining a comfortable level of emotional detachment today if you acknowledge how much you like someone. You want to share your feelings, but could be afraid of exposing your vulnerability as you worry about being rejected. Your approach-avoidance dilemma raises long-standing relationships issues. Be patient; you won't receive answers to all your questions

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i have two towels that i brought with me from colorado. one is for my hair (when i take a shower) the other is for my body. i hang them in the bathroom on the same towel bar since the day i got here. everyone in this house knows they are my towels.yesterday when i went to take a shower, i noticed the towel i use for my hair, was gone. i was thinking, WTF? who used my towel? (they never do

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Chinese horoscope:OxYou'll always want to go farther and no obstacle can impede your progress; however, don't let yourself be intoxicated. Possible stomach burns, flatulence: you should take more time to eat, masticating your food well. All risk of irritation or conflictual situation should be carefully avoided. Love and understanding will prevail this time. You'll even find reasons for

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You are 47 years and 230 days oldYou were born on Tuesdayon a cold winter's dayYou were born: 17397 days agoYou were born: 572 months agoYou were born: 2485 weeks agoYour next birthday is in: 135 daysYour Chinese zodiac sign: OxYour zodiac sign : AquariusYour element : AirYour planet: Saturn and UranusYour colour: Midnight blueYour stone: Amethystmy past life:Diagnosis: I do not know how you

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AquariusAt first it seems like others are encouraging you, but when you actually begin to put your plan into motion, they withdraw and don't show up to help. You cannot effectively go chasing after the approval you want to have today, for it recedes faster the more you pursue it. The urgency is within your mind. Ease up; you have more time than you think.crazy, i say. just crazy. i like reading

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Saturday, September 12You will be speaking out on an important issue, most likely because of a "dysfunctional relationship" in your circle of friends. Whether you are intimately involved or not, you will have strong opinions and should tread carefully if you want to be heard. lol! 'nuff said.

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Tuesday, September 8Dramatic changes are coming in your love life as a result of changing values, changes in friendships, or changes in your beliefs about "right and wrong". You may be growing toward a better understanding, or are growing apart from someone who has chosen to stay frozen in the past.that couldn't be more on target. i just read it.when i got home tonight, there was another car in

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Sunday, September 6You may have one of those silly misunderstandings that makes you wonder if your life is not becoming some weird kind of reality show or situation comedy being secretly filmed for network television. Not to worry, your loved ones will start acting normal again soon. (chinese horoscope)i'm waiting.

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that was the temperature here today. i'm melting, really.anyone who knows me knows i HATE the heat. hate it. H-A-T-E. i know that the valley is hotter than most other places in california, but really? 104? supposedly next week it's supposed to cool off into the 80s. we'll see.the drive home from work is horrendous. 6 lane highway jam packed, stop and go in 104 degrees w/ no air

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i don't belong here. in california or in this house.i don't belong with these people.i don't belong in colorado.i don't know where i belong anymore. i am basically trapped where i'm at. i have one option for changing it and it's an option i've tried several times. why am i scared to try it now? mostly because i think i won't be successful and i will be a failure at it yet again.i hate my

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still trying to get into the swing of things here in california. it's kind of strange at time. there are moments that i find myself thinking that i need to run over to PetSmart or something and i realize that i'm not in kansas anymore (denver). i'm a very long way from home and even if i wanted to get there ~ i'm not sure how i could.life in this house is chaotic at best. there are good days

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i am sick. my boss was out sick wed, thurs and friday. her doctor told her that she probably had the flue / strep. when i got up friday morning my throat was kind of sore. as the day went on i was feeling worse and worse. i had previously scheduled a doctor appointment with a new doctor (whom i didn't like at all but that's another post) so when i went in to get a cortisone shot in my hand

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click on the picture for a LARGE viewa dog's life.a beach near malibujoy! happy doggy!after playing on the beach, i'm hungry! i'm being patient ... we are at In N Out!!

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the biggest reason i came herehere it is.*sigh*the santa monica piergeorge jetson uses this gas station on Robertson

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hooray for HOLLYWOOD!yes, please. i would like this house.some famous comedy club (can't remember the name)the whiskey a go go. famous people play here.the roxy. famous people play here too.zip code 90210. i'm looking for donna martin. have you seen her?i'm also looking for the fresh prince.

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right past the Arizona / Nevada border. why yes. a casino!entering Vegas ~ the Stratosphere!the Rio. i stayed here once on a business trip. there is a club on the top with a patio that has just a railing. i kept thinking the drunk people were going to fall off.a really, really, really BIG hill entering into california. i didn't think my 4 cyl car would make it.omg!! i made it!!on a highway

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here are some pics of the trip out here:sienna in the back seat. we are on our way!the rocky mountains from the west sidedevil's something in utah. i can't remember.i do know it belonged to the devil; however, because it was hot hot hot!!sienna on the bed trying to recover from being in 110 degree heat.poor sienna! :(leaving st. george, utah.

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i love this article. dogs really are brilliant creatures and i love them.i love my sienna so much. and i'd love to have a doberman someday. and i will."He found the top dogs, in order of their doggy IQ are: 1. Border collies 2. Poodles 3. German shepherds 4. Golden retrievers 5. Dobermans 6. Shetland sheepdogs 7. Labrador retrievers At the bottom of the intelligence barrel, Coren

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the ocean (check)the hollywood signthe viper room (check)Kat Von D's tattoo shopWalk of StarsGrumman's Chinese TheatreKodak TheatreRobertson Drivesomeone famousBritney Spear's house (or i should say driveway cuz you can't see their houses from the street)added 08.09.09Jennifer Anniston's house (driveway)the ivyrodeo drivecatalina islandsteel panther @ the key clubphil collen's house

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it's amazing how the internet and cable has improved my mood. i guess they are luxury things but when you are in a home without any access to news, friends, family, the world ~ it sucks. john is gone 5 1/2 days a week coupled with the fact that i don't know my way around anywhere leaves me stranded at home. i'm thankful for my job which gets me out of the house. i have made a few new friends ~

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this is a bit off the topic, but Paula Abdul, really? rejecting a 30% raise which would easily make 8 figures? it's not enough? seriously? ok, ok. you got bills to pay girl. i ain't mad at ya. but wow.and for the record, if you have people like Katy Perry and Posh Spice as guest judges, i'm done. it's over. my 2 year love affair with American Idol is done. i'm not willing to sacrifice 3

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geez is it really august already? yikes. where has this year gone?crazy to think that i had been unemployed since the middle of february until two weeks ago. and the holidays are right around the corner.glad the weekend is over. i get bored out of my mind sitting in my room at the house watching movies. at least this week i will have the computer and cable. that, at least, gives me more

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i cried last night when i knew my beloved Myca was gone. there was no other option but still i feel i failed.i'm feeling like i'm failing at everything these days. my living situation has turned toxic. john is no longer speaking to me after the huge argument we had yesterday morning. when i got home from work he and his son were gone. i went to bed about 8pm. they hadn't returned. i would

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mr. mycamr. handsomei am so so sorry that i could not bring you with me. every day i ask myself if it were possible and i just don't think you would have made the trip in the heat. sienna barely did. having no air conditioning and 110 degree temperatures, i think would have been very hard on you. plus where i live? they don't like dogs and like cats even less.i am sorry i failed you as a pet

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so. here's the deal. any idea that i had that john and i may eventually work things out as far as a relationship was shot to hell last night during a conversation that he and i had. in it he said, "you will never be my girlfriend ..." in reference to the fact that i can't take his "straight shooting." he may be honest, but his delivery sucks. and he offers continual unsolicited advice. if

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i am sore all over from the fall out of the bed yesterday.my wrist hurts. i have bruises all over my abdomen. my pinky toe is now black and blue down the side of my foot. i have scrapes/bruises on my knees. i wonder what i was thinking or doing in my dream that caused me to throw myself off the bed .. if i didn't feel like such crap, it would be funny. i can admit it. things at the house

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i'm having a frustrating day today.it started when i was rudely awaken at 3:30 am as i was falling out of bed. i was on my back (i'm guessing) and rolled over onto my right side but must have been on the edge of the bed. i woke mid-air right before my knees slammed into the hardwood floors and as my left foot slid to the left, slamming into the metal foot of a stand that is in my room. i

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my son is back in jail for those wondering.parole violation (no new charges). this means he will be going back to a half-way house for the remainder of his 180 day turn around. he will be released from the half-way house sometime in january. he's off paper in april.he's planning on leaving the state after that.my friends had to pack up the rest of my things and move it into storage (he was

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one of the strangest things that i've encountered since i've been on the west coast is motorcycle drivers. in colorado, they are required to operate their bike in a lane. in cali, they can drive on the dotted white line BETWEEN the cars. the first time i saw someone do this i about had a heart attack. then i was told that it's legal in cali. really? legal to kill yourself on a bike? every

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i am back (sort of). we still do not have internet at home (i will be getting that next week).whew. quite an adjustment moving to california. the drive was pretty uneventful EXCEPT for the un-godly temperatures throughout utah and nevada. i would guess there were times it was in the upper 110s while we were driving. sienna had a really hard time of it. i kept water in the back seat for her

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RIP farrah fawcett and michael jackson. what a day. i know farrah was suffering from cancer and since the documentary about her treatment, she has been sicker than ever. not unexpected news to hear, but very sad, nonetheless. she was a beautiful woman and very brave & strong during her treatment. i'm sure ryan o'neal, alana stewart and her son redmond are deeply saddened at her passing, but

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finally received my unemployment. you can't imagine the utter relief i felt when i checked my bank balance and the deposit was in there. doesn't negate the fact that i am two days behind on the things i needed to get done before i leave on sunday. that means the next three days are going to be incredibly busy.three days. wow. in three days i will be leaving the place i've lived for 41 years

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something i failed to mention in my earlier post was that his parole officer said that IF he quit missing his monday night classes and IF he started going to NA / AA meetings on his own and IF he gets a job right away, that she will make the recommendation for him to continue on ISP (intensive supervised parole) rather than going back to the half way house.he has to grow up and make his own

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as it is with my life, if things are going too good, something will happen to blast that to smithereens. my son's parole officer showed up tonight. that, in and of itself, is not a bad thing. it is what they are supposed to do. and frankly, i've been surprised that she hasn't been here before tonight. she also came rather late (9:30 pm) which surprised me.apparently, he had a hot UA. this

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so the last few days have been spent going through boxes, sorting out clothes to go to storage, clothes i'm taking with me and clothes for the yard sale this weekend. i am exhausted. because most of my stuff is going into storage, i have to put everything in boxes. not like i can take a handful of clothes on hangers and throw them in the back seat.as the days pass i'm filled with mixed

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this blog will be about my journey ~ moving to california after living in colorado all my life. 40 something and changing my entire universe in a matter of weeks. this is the first day of the rest of my new life.

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